episcopalman
New member
I was in Auckland in March and had hopped to see a better future and better support in Auckland. I saw a glimpse of that but had to return to Australia to go with my Mother to Sudan. Now Sudan is in a civil war. I will be returning back to Auckland with the next three months if I don't succumb to my mental health issues.
I'm 26 - I have osteoporosis - chronic fatigue and a lot more long term effects and permant disabilties that will carry on in my life. No mater if I accept or don't accept. No matter if I'm medicated or un medicated, at my best or at my worst, if I'm supported or not. I don't know the future but if any one was to say anything. I've worked no physical labour jobs and had to leave them because of my health and fatigue. I reduced my days and hours. I took time off. I tried different things. I thought about new work. I will never be able to work a full time job. It's just beyond my capacity and capabilities. If I wake up early and was to drive then I'm not the best driving in that condition. So rip to full time work. Let's look at part time work. Hmm I can do part time work maybe 1-2 days and then I have to take days off to recover. So again reduced work rate. I'll also most likely be stuck in low income low skilled jobs because of my issues with memory and uni. Doctors said I can't work anyway or drive. But what was I supposed to do give up?
I don't know what to do any more or with my life. I have goals and ambitions. It's not a matter of encouragement being gratefully or realizing something relaxing or w/e. It's a cold hard fact that I can not work.
If I can turn my current income into something which I doubt I can. And have already tried creative pursuits and everything.
What is left for me and what is my future like in Auckland. I want to be a contributing member in my life and in Auckland. Work isn't everything I have great qualities. But if I want to reach my goals it is very important.
I'm really lost and want to give up on life. In really close to doing that.
I need solutions
I'm 26 - I have osteoporosis - chronic fatigue and a lot more long term effects and permant disabilties that will carry on in my life. No mater if I accept or don't accept. No matter if I'm medicated or un medicated, at my best or at my worst, if I'm supported or not. I don't know the future but if any one was to say anything. I've worked no physical labour jobs and had to leave them because of my health and fatigue. I reduced my days and hours. I took time off. I tried different things. I thought about new work. I will never be able to work a full time job. It's just beyond my capacity and capabilities. If I wake up early and was to drive then I'm not the best driving in that condition. So rip to full time work. Let's look at part time work. Hmm I can do part time work maybe 1-2 days and then I have to take days off to recover. So again reduced work rate. I'll also most likely be stuck in low income low skilled jobs because of my issues with memory and uni. Doctors said I can't work anyway or drive. But what was I supposed to do give up?
I don't know what to do any more or with my life. I have goals and ambitions. It's not a matter of encouragement being gratefully or realizing something relaxing or w/e. It's a cold hard fact that I can not work.
If I can turn my current income into something which I doubt I can. And have already tried creative pursuits and everything.
What is left for me and what is my future like in Auckland. I want to be a contributing member in my life and in Auckland. Work isn't everything I have great qualities. But if I want to reach my goals it is very important.
I'm really lost and want to give up on life. In really close to doing that.
I need solutions