So let me just start by saying… I know this post is going to sound a bit selfish and I apologize in advance but I’m annoyed. Just over it. I have been going to a doctor regarding seeing where I stand to have kids. My s/o and I talked in depth about it. I thought we had reached a different understanding regarding my fertility issues/struggles and our timeline…needless to say, today he was basically like: I can’t promise we will have kids in the next year let alone 2 years or 5 years. I can’t promise you anything. We can’t afford it. It’s absolutely a no-go.
It sucks being broke and always having no money. I know we’re struggling and have financial issues, I’m not naïve. I know it stupid to want a child in this situation but gd dmn. I am so tired of the mental pull... I have always wanted a kid. Both of us are getting older, my lab work re:fertility is coming back and it’s not good. My doctor is telling me to start trying now if I want a kid and I finally thought we were stable enough to start trying…. But then this conversation. I totally get why but it still hurts. I don’t have 2 or 5 years to try. My doctor is telling me now, or within the next year at the latest. Which according to him is off the table.
Idk why I’m even posting here I just don’t have anyone I can talk to about it… and definitely not without crying. It just sucks. Thanks for listening to me vent. Advice or relatable comments welcome. I guess I’m trying to figure out how everyone else that has kids does it and if it’s really that difficult overall financially speaking.
It sucks being broke and always having no money. I know we’re struggling and have financial issues, I’m not naïve. I know it stupid to want a child in this situation but gd dmn. I am so tired of the mental pull... I have always wanted a kid. Both of us are getting older, my lab work re:fertility is coming back and it’s not good. My doctor is telling me to start trying now if I want a kid and I finally thought we were stable enough to start trying…. But then this conversation. I totally get why but it still hurts. I don’t have 2 or 5 years to try. My doctor is telling me now, or within the next year at the latest. Which according to him is off the table.
Idk why I’m even posting here I just don’t have anyone I can talk to about it… and definitely not without crying. It just sucks. Thanks for listening to me vent. Advice or relatable comments welcome. I guess I’m trying to figure out how everyone else that has kids does it and if it’s really that difficult overall financially speaking.