Midway next year I am set to finish study, conjoint LLB/BA. I studied away from home (I could not live there a second longer) and got some scholarships but I've paid for most of my uni via my student loan.
I used to be smart (I think) but when I was at the end of 2021 I had a traumatic experience that lead me to develop PTSD. I think this is relevant cause I did shite at uni (IMO, shite for law. My BA papers were fine) for the last two years because I was unwell.
Now I am better but I am feeling like I've already ruined everything. I have a casual legal writing consultancy job but so far just focusing on studies- though I should get a job (if I could get one). I also do volunteering and extracurriculars but I worry that my past grades will mean most employers will just write me off.
As I was saying, next year I finish uni and I want to leave NZ for a bit. I was thinking of Melbourne because my boyfriend would like to go too and I have family there to support me (although I don't think I'd live with them). I wouldn't stay long, but we were thinking maybe Canada after because he is a citizen.
I am really worried about the money situation especially considering after 6 months my interest on student loan will begin to build. I'm also worried about getting a job because of my previous grades, because in law there is always someone better than you (and there is always someone who's getting in via nepotism). I can't stay here any longer, living in my city is making me more depressed.
Not sure if this is the right subreddit, but I'm not sure what to do.
I used to be smart (I think) but when I was at the end of 2021 I had a traumatic experience that lead me to develop PTSD. I think this is relevant cause I did shite at uni (IMO, shite for law. My BA papers were fine) for the last two years because I was unwell.
Now I am better but I am feeling like I've already ruined everything. I have a casual legal writing consultancy job but so far just focusing on studies- though I should get a job (if I could get one). I also do volunteering and extracurriculars but I worry that my past grades will mean most employers will just write me off.
As I was saying, next year I finish uni and I want to leave NZ for a bit. I was thinking of Melbourne because my boyfriend would like to go too and I have family there to support me (although I don't think I'd live with them). I wouldn't stay long, but we were thinking maybe Canada after because he is a citizen.
I am really worried about the money situation especially considering after 6 months my interest on student loan will begin to build. I'm also worried about getting a job because of my previous grades, because in law there is always someone better than you (and there is always someone who's getting in via nepotism). I can't stay here any longer, living in my city is making me more depressed.
Not sure if this is the right subreddit, but I'm not sure what to do.