So some background context; I have as few qualifications as any really after having to drop out of college after 18 months to help my single dad pay rent. As I result, I took a job back then as an 18 year old and spent nearly 7 years working for one of England’s biggest supermarkets, flashy I know. In 2013, I moved out to live with my other half and we got married in May 2017....we split up in August 2017 after she cheated on me and i’m still paying off the wedding.
I took a new job, still only low level employment, in December 2017 shortly after renting a room from my friend’s mum, he still lives at home. I stay there for a year, everything going relatively okay but I know maybe not sustainable. Friend’s mum asks me to move out because her daughter’s in trouble and wants to move home. Fine, I know how important family is to people. So January of this year, I move in with my grandparents (at age 26, this alone nearly caused me a breakdown). In February, my place of employment burns to the ground.
Now I will singing the praises of my former employer. It is bog standard shit warehouse work but the training, attention of health and safety, pay, treatment of staff after the fire, all absolutely phenomenal. Workers didn’t work for 5 months, yet received full pay. Anyway, it’s now at the point where i’m now officially redundant and unemployed, my last paycheck is this Friday (and it’s not a full one).
I’ve been looking for shit bog standard work anywhere for about 3 weeks and it’s either rejections or i’ve not applied because of crap pay or I know how they operate. I’ve even been on with an agency who got me work somewhere but I did one day and packed it in because it was a shambles. I’m finding it so hard to want to get up and get work but at the same time, I feel like i’m being snobby over my options. Partly because my last job treated me so well. But then i’m about to be on my last legs in terms of money.
I pay my grandparents £350 a month rent. I pay my (to-be) ex-wife £100 a month on a loan we had. I try to pay £100-150 towards my Paypal Credit account which i’ve used for big purchases in the past (£550 remaining). My two other personal bills make up £110 so total atm, i’m £750~ a month in bills. My next and last paycheck from old employer probably covers that but then I do nothing for a month. I have spent weeks, months in a bedroom almost weeks at a time and I just can’t see any hope in a future. Like how do I recover my life from here?
I took a new job, still only low level employment, in December 2017 shortly after renting a room from my friend’s mum, he still lives at home. I stay there for a year, everything going relatively okay but I know maybe not sustainable. Friend’s mum asks me to move out because her daughter’s in trouble and wants to move home. Fine, I know how important family is to people. So January of this year, I move in with my grandparents (at age 26, this alone nearly caused me a breakdown). In February, my place of employment burns to the ground.
Now I will singing the praises of my former employer. It is bog standard shit warehouse work but the training, attention of health and safety, pay, treatment of staff after the fire, all absolutely phenomenal. Workers didn’t work for 5 months, yet received full pay. Anyway, it’s now at the point where i’m now officially redundant and unemployed, my last paycheck is this Friday (and it’s not a full one).
I’ve been looking for shit bog standard work anywhere for about 3 weeks and it’s either rejections or i’ve not applied because of crap pay or I know how they operate. I’ve even been on with an agency who got me work somewhere but I did one day and packed it in because it was a shambles. I’m finding it so hard to want to get up and get work but at the same time, I feel like i’m being snobby over my options. Partly because my last job treated me so well. But then i’m about to be on my last legs in terms of money.
I pay my grandparents £350 a month rent. I pay my (to-be) ex-wife £100 a month on a loan we had. I try to pay £100-150 towards my Paypal Credit account which i’ve used for big purchases in the past (£550 remaining). My two other personal bills make up £110 so total atm, i’m £750~ a month in bills. My next and last paycheck from old employer probably covers that but then I do nothing for a month. I have spent weeks, months in a bedroom almost weeks at a time and I just can’t see any hope in a future. Like how do I recover my life from here?
- One failed marriage, no qualifications, no good employment history, living with family, no savings, no hope, no will to live at this point. What future do I possibly have? I just can’t muster up any emotion to care about living anymore. I’d rather kick the bucket than face my future.