@jeplet I just have to say YOU ARE AMAZING and I know you will , with some help from here and around, will get what you want !
Just keep it up. Set some goals, then break them down into lil tiny bits that you can achieve each week, save x, do that, and your world will flourish!!!
You are young and have DECADES ahead of you.
For eg (from me) our family are off to Italy for 5 weeks. We planned this 6 years ago! And been saving for 5 years!
Time flies when you’re having fun, and the goals just suddenly turn up, leaving in less than a month!
Please be super proud of yourself , don’t look back, you have made the change and it’s all up from here.